Esha♡

Writer. Birb mom. Future law student.

About

Hi, I’m Esha! I’m 24, a writer with a love for language, a mild obsession with structure, and a growing interest in law. I spend a lot of time thinking about how people say things without really saying them, and how we all follow little rules we don’t always talk about. That kind of thinking slips into my writing a lot, especially when I’m digging into power dynamics, emotional repression, or characters making terrible decisions for deliciously complicated reasons.Most of what I write consists of character-driven stories that are messy, layered, and usually explicit. Sometimes I’m exploring identity and control through kink and tension. Other times, I’m just writing pure smut because it’s fun and hot and makes my brain light up like a microwave.

Chuuya Nakahara, the loml (unfortunately fictional ˙◠˙).

Lately my brain has been completely taken over by Bungou Stray Dogs, and I’m having the time of my life falling down that rabbit hole. My absolute favorite character is Chuuya, and I am shamelessly obsessed with him. The temper, the loyalty, the dramatic personality, the fashion, the sheer intensity of him as a character… it’s all extremely important to me now.Because of that, I’m also very invested in the relationship between Chuuya and Dazai. Their dynamic scratches every storytelling itch I have. They have history, rivalry, chaos, emotional tension, and the kind of understanding that only comes from knowing someone far too well. In my heart Chuuya is the top and Dazai is the disaster he constantly has to deal with... (˵˃ ᗜ ˂˵)I’m also extremely fond of the dynamic between Poe and Ranpo. Their relationship is just ridiculously fun to me. I love the version where Poe is the devoted, slightly obsessive one who would absolutely rewrite reality for Ranpo, while Ranpo gets to be the smug little genius at the center of Poe’s entire world.At this point BSD has completely taken over my imagination. The dynamics and relationships have been living in my head nonstop lately, so a lot of my current creative energy is happily orbiting that world right now~ (˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶)

Artwork by Etherael. Used with permission.

That being said, the real rulers of my life are not fictional men but my two cockatiels. They are loud, dramatic, endlessly curious, and far too smart for their tiny bodies. Caring for them is a huge part of my life, and they teach me a lot about trust, communication, joy, and the quiet kinds of love that show up in everyday moments. If I’m not writing, I’m probably singing to them, talking to them like tiny roommates, or letting them march across my keyboard like they pay rent. They don’t, but I let it slide.When I’m not being supervised by birds, I also love being part of fandom communities. I enjoy meeting other writers, talking about craft and narrative choices, and sharing the strange collective brainrot that happens when everyone falls in love with the same fictional disaster at the same time.Through that, I’ve become involved in a number of fandom events and zines, both as a contributor and sometimes helping organize things behind the scenes. I love the collaborative energy of those projects, whether that means writing, working with artists, or helping guide things so everyone can create together. Watching a group of people come together around shared enthusiasm for the same stories is honestly one of my favorite parts of fandom life.Anyway, this is just a little corner where I keep my writing, socials, and updates on the projects and events I’m involved in. If you’re here because you enjoy complicated characters, chaotic ships, and stories that lean a little intense or emotional, then you’re probably in the right place. Thanks for stopping by! (✿◠ᴗ◠)—esha ♡

Portfolio

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Writing

Each story leaves something behind. This page holds my most recent one.

Title: preparation was never my strong suit, but losing control might be
Author: captivatedintrovert
Status: Completed
Fandom: Bungou Stray Dogs
Ship: Chuuzai (Chuuya/Dazai)
✎ College AU | First Meetings | M-rated | Explicit

Summary:On move-in day, Dazai shows up three hours late to his new college apartment, drops his suitcase in the middle of the floor, and immediately starts testing his new roommate’s patience.Chuuya expected a quiet, orderly semester. What he got was a loud, infuriating brat who doesn’t know when to shut up, and an even bigger problem: how much he likes it.

Excerpt:

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“You think this is funny?” Chuuya snarls.Dazai lets his gaze drag downward again, slower this time, taking in the flush of skin, the way those grey sweatpants sit indecently low on his hips, the faint tension in his abdomen that hasn’t quite softened yet.“I think,” Dazai replies after a moment, “that you’re overreacting.”Chuuya’s hand moves before the rest of him does, fingers catching the front of Dazai’s shirt and fisting there without hesitation. The fabric bunches, pulling Dazai forward just enough that their chests nearly brush, and the sudden shift in proximity knocks the air thinner between them. The music is still playing somewhere behind him, bass humming faintly beneath the moment like an impatient heartbeat.Dazai looks down at the grip on his shirt, then back up, unbothered.“Well,” he murmurs, voice dipping softer without losing its teasing edge, “that’s one way to get my attention.”

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Curious to find out what happens next? You can read the full story here. Thanks for stopping by. I really appreciate it! 𐔌՞. .՞𐦯